‘Bachelor’ star Colton Underwood: ‘I’ve run from myself for a long time’
The former American football player and 'The Bachelor' star has revealed that he is gay in an emotional 'Good Morning America' interview.
The former The Bachelor star revealed the truth about his sexuality and admits that he came to terms with being attracted to men earlier this year after spending a “long time” running from himself.
During a candid chat with Robin Roberts on Good Morning America, Colton explained: “For me, I’ve run from myself for a long time. I’ve hated myself for a long time.
“I’m gay and I came to terms with that earlier this year and have been processing it. The next step in all of this was sort of letting people know. It’s been a journey for sure.”
Colton Underwood feeling ’emotional but secure’
The 29-year-old TV personality admitted he’s been feeling “emotional” but is secure in himself.
He continued: “I’m emotional, but I’m emotional in such a happy and positive way. I’m like the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been in my life and that means the world to me.”
Death better than coming out gay?
Colton opened up on how he knew he had to tell the truth when felt death would have been a better option than coming out.
He said: “I got into a place for me in my personal life that was dark and bad. I can list a bunch of different things, but they’d all be excuses. But I think overall, the reason why now is because I got into a place where I didn’t think I was ever going to share this. I would’ve rather died than say ‘I’m gay’.
“And I think that was sort of my wake-up call.”
Asked if he had considered self-harm, Colton said: “Yeah. There was a moment in LA that I woke up and I didn’t think I was going to wake up. I didn’t have the intentions of waking up, and I did. And I think for me, that was my wake-up call of like, ‘This is your life. Take back control.'”
Colton Underwood apologises to Cassie Randolph
Colton also apologised to his former partner Cassie Randolph, whom he had met on ‘The Bachelor’, after she had filed a restraining order and accused him of stalking and harassment after they split during the summer of 2020.
He shared: “I’d like to say sorry for how things ended. I messed up. I made a lot of bad choices.
“If I’m being honest, I loved everything about her and it’s hard for me to articulate exactly what my emotions were in going through with that relationship with her was, because I obviously had an internal fight going on.
“I would just say that I’m sorry from the bottom of my heart. I’m sorry for the pain and emotional stress I caused. I wish it wouldn’t have happened the way it did.”